Relation

It is the nature of all relations
to dip and dive through uncertainty
especially ones with emotional equations
be it friend, foe or family

I once shared such emotions
with a friend, now not so dear
we never put forth our intentions
cause we had succumbed to fear

I often shared this equation
with my mother, all caught up in prayer
because I chose not to pay attention
to the times she needed me to care

I always shared this relation
with loved ones who took the fall
because through all the tension
I never cared at all

In every single association
there was a mutual notion
the inability of the individual
to set his feelings in motion

so the default setting on display
was apathy and anxiety
many were lost along the way
to this dysfunctional deity

the reasons you may provide
to tell me that we could be otherwise
will only help me decide
how to guide us to our demise

Spirit

Inspired by the song Nothing Compares to you  – covered by Chris Cornell.

It’s been 2 years and 15 days,
and I’m glad to see your back,
but you return, in every drunken haze,
the voice that leads every throwback,

You arrive once again,
sweet sullen symphony,
its crazy how a voice can drain,
all forms of sobriety

I feel worn out,
I’m tired of listening,
You go on about,
How I’ve been drinking,

to avoid you, 
and your conversations,
nothing seems true,
just like your expectations,

your voice makes me sweat,
as your monologue is heated with threats,
I light another cigarette
smoke away my regrets,

I just want another drink,
to drown out your voice,
damned if i could think,
that you were giving me a choice,

I look at you, in tears,
as you stare back with limp eyes,
questioning all of these years,
had I spent them living lies?

despair begins to revel
as I try one last time,
to deal with my devil
parley with a pantomime,

I try to seduce you,
serenade you with my squabbles,
but tonight you stay true
to the illusions of the bottles

you walk away,
and I’m rooted like a stone,
good riddance for the day,
as the alcohol numbs me to the bone

i feel lost,
I’m tired of following,
our paths, which crossed,
and the decadence you were offering.

So I let sleep carry me through,
as your voice is receding,
nothing compares to you,
as I feel the world fading.

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