Nocturnal Normalcy

I’ve been sleeping weird lately
for a year, to be precise
waking up intermittently
slowly rubbing my eyes

a brief pause as I falter
in the darkness around me
trying to gather
the senses that let me see

the same four-hour lap
that has been playing on repeat
trying to fill up the gap
that would help me replete

the energies that I have lost
to this midnight madness
it is the unnecessary cost
that I have paid for this practice

I wonder why this routine
has wriggled its way through
as I try to come clean
and fix these bedtime blues

but what am I truly battling?
sleep, exhaustion or anxiety?
because something has been knocking
and it hasn’t taken too kindly

to being resisted with such grace
as I cut short my dreams
I just want to make my peace
with these subconscious schemes

I’ve been sleeping fine lately
maintaining the 4 am scenes
I guess this nocturnal normalcy
will always be my routine.