Estranged

Dried lips and a cigarette
smoking away all my regrets
while I puff and ponder
does it ever makes you wonder

Will we ever find a way to mend?
or do we continue to pretend
at every step where we stumble
why must you keep up this struggle?

I could tell you it’s worth the fight
and within me lies an eternal light
but in the darkness I go under
does it ever make you wonder?

Don’t be afraid to take the plunge
let go if it gets too much
you have no reason to stay
it’s okay if you walk away

No more holding onto suffering
what have you gained from all this crumbling
you’ve nothing else left to prove
I can see you want to move

Away from this eventual decline
but you think you don’t have the spine
it’s been a recurring blunder
when will it make you wonder?

Dried lips and a cigarette
twirling away all my regrets
I want to make things better
I don’t want us to sit and wonder

Relation

It is the nature of all relations
to dip and dive through uncertainty
especially ones with emotional equations
be it friend, foe or family

I once shared such emotions
with a friend, now not so dear
we never put forth our intentions
cause we had succumbed to fear

I often shared this equation
with my mother, all caught up in prayer
because I chose not to pay attention
to the times she needed me to care

I always shared this relation
with loved ones who took the fall
because through all the tension
I never cared at all

In every single association
there was a mutual notion
the inability of the individual
to set his feelings in motion

so the default setting on display
was apathy and anxiety
many were lost along the way
to this dysfunctional deity

the reasons you may provide
to tell me that we could be otherwise
will only help me decide
how to guide us to our demise